Crush

The crush began one year ago. It was so fun and so exciting. It was unexpected which made it even better. I had finally given up on actively searching for someone and I was blown away by his interest in me. I had always noticed him but was curious about him.....thought he was strangely quiet. I quickly learned that he is not quiet. He began emailing and calling me at work for little things and then he caught me staring at him in a meeting. I quickly looked away but it was obvious that I was starting. The next awkward moment was a fund raiser. We sat together and enjoyed each other. When it came time for me to leave it was an awkward moment that we looked back on and laughed about. Then he asked me out. I was not sure if it was as friends or if he was interested. We had a great time that night. We went for drinks and finished the night with breakfast at Norms. I liked him. He seemed so into me. It was perfect but in reality it turned out to be far from perfect.

I want to get back to the place I was at before he pursued me. I was happy, healthy and having fun. I was feeling beautiful and confident. I want it back. Hopefully once I find that version of myself again, I will have another unexpected admirer and maybe he will be the perfect one.