My Dad

My Dad is a pretty unbelievable man. He was always a bit strict and quick tempered when growing up but with each passing year he has grown into being a wonderful father. We became close when my Mom was diagnosed with cancer. My Dad and I were the primary people involved and we offerred one another strength when times seemed so tough. When my Mom's health returned, I was off to college. My Dad called me about 5 days a week to check in and to just to let me know he was thinking of me. He became the person who kept me up to date with our other family members and over the 5 years of me living down here he became the one person I could tell anything to. He never seems to pass judgement and if he does he calls later to rectify his quick judgement. The years seem to have helped him become more open to just about everything. He is one of the people who truly understand me. He means so much to me!



About 3 years ago he picked up horseback riding. He loves it! He rides with a bunch of women and they are members of some riding club. Roger is his horse....I am not so crazy about Roger...probably because he once cornered me when I was holding a handful of carrots and I thought the horse was going to trample me! Dad yelled to me put your arms up! So I did and the horse backed up! Thank goodness because Roger is huge.



Life has been a little tough for my parents and my Dad really seems to have most of the stress on him. Even though he is living in a 44 foot trailer and barely has any of his own things, he always has something positive to say. His attitude is great. He often says silly inspirational things which really can make you laugh. Considering he came to America when he was only 23 years old with only 50 dollars in his pocket, it is quite amazing that he is so accomplished! I am very proud of my Dad and so thankful to have him in my life!

When a change is needed.....sometimes we are forced to make the change

A friend made that statement to me tonight and I completely believe it. I knew I should not have been eating that Chineese food! Healthy eating is the goal.....the food poisoning will likely help me reach that goal.

Single Friends, Dating and Relationships

She told me today how she had noticed just how frustrating it is to listen to all of her friends talk about how wonderful it is to have their boyfriends! I completely understand. It is not that we are not happy for them but it certainly forces you to remember that there is no one stealing the covers at night and no one to wake up to in the morning. It is tough....but at least our friends have found good guys....it will eventually happen again for us too.

I was talking to a friend the other day and she asked me when I had last had a "real" relationship? I started thinking and I realized that it has been since about early 2001...or late 2000...I am not even sure. So it has been about six years since I have had someone who I have called my boyfriend. WOW! I had not really sat down and thought about how long I have been single. Of course I have dated in those years and even had a couple of long term "dating relationships" (he was too scared to be my boyfriend but I think it has turned out to be in my benefit!) but wow six years. I think I have forgotten how I acted when I had a boyfriend. Did I slowly start losing my friends or did I make time for my friends. I know when we meet that special someone it is hard to think of anyone but them and often times we forget to make time for our friends. Is that natural? Should I expect my friends with boyfriends to always set me to the side and only call when they have a fight and suddenly need their friends again? Did I do that to my friends back in the day when I had a boyfriend? I know that when I find a special person to spend time with again that I will remember to continue to make time for my friends. Obviously my friends have been my life for over 6 years and how could I cut them out when a special someone comes along? I hope I will be able to be a good friend and girlfriend. I guess I better get a boyfriend before I stress too much!

When I asked about that guy and if he was still dating that girl....you should not sound so sad to tell me that they are still happily dating. It is ok. I am happy for them! I like him and I am happy he is happy. You are a silly girl....trust me I am more resilient(sp?) than I act at times.

That damn movie today made me cry! I must bury all of my feelings and that is why I suddenly explode and cannot hold it in.....I do it all the time when watching movies. I am such a nerd....I guess I am just too darn emotional. I have lost him for good. It is a good thing but it is hard. We will never talk again unless we bump into each other and I think out of respect for him I will avoid that. My words are sometimes so cold and hateful. I spoke those words out of frustration but of course there was some truth as well. The only reason I even started contacting him again is b/c of the lack of contact from the person I currently have a crush on. The crush will just be a crush and I can only hope that we will stay friends. I obviously was not what he wanted but I warned him about that...yet he wanted to see for himself. I really felt like we had a connection but maybe it was all in my imagination. I suppose it was....as he has stated "All things are possible, but not all things are probable". He is out there desperately searching for someone but I feel like I could be a fit for him but I don't think he sees it. One friend told me I should be bold and honest and just tell him I felt a connection and that I have a little crush. I told her she was crazy. Why do I want to put myself out on the edge like that? I just don't think I am brave enough to do that just yet....maybe after another 1/2 a bottle of Captain Morgan I will be able to accomplish it! :) So now I have no one...a blessing, yes but I am certainly feeling alone and doing entirely too much work at work b/c I have no one to email/IM with all day long! I guess the lack of a man in my life at least allows for some job security!

Pool Time

Four girls relaxing by the pool today! Good company, good conversation and many laughs. All we needed was a little more sun. Another good weekend! I truly do live for the weekends!

Catching up with old friends

Last weekend it was a friend from elementary school and this weekend it was my cousin who I had not seen for 10 years or so and a friend from high school! I never thought that I would have enjoyed it all so much. It is fun to recall old stories and be reminded of things you had thought you had long forgotten. It was a great weekend once again!!